Yes, Yes, Yes!

The Inner

Titled: Death be my amen

my LOVE’s heart beats loud as a swat team home invasion
boom boom boom boom
will you come in?
and once you enter make a home
or find that it’s already been made for you
He who’s heart is just as strong as it is tender
is a Living Invitation to see Him with the eyes of a hawk hunting for dinner
see Him clear as still water

LOVE! aren’t our eyes still clouded?

yes, clouded as Flint’s water
and we, Your children, drink in this poor perspective
LOVE!
when my eyes lie i need Your
breathe to become vacuum
a black hole
pull me in with Your inhale
that i become like Jonah in the belly of the whale
seeing You from the inside out
and as i am being swallowed
i will make a pit stop at Your heart,
so i can see
that
my LOVE’s heart beats soft as LOVER’s whispers
speaks sweet somethings of value and belonging
and when i don’t know where home is i can find it in You, mm
when i don’t know what LOVE is i can
find it in You, mm
i’m a child of the Truth, mm
and this world is at war tryna
divide me from You, mm

i want to be like prime numbers
divisible by One
and myself, only
i am temple of LOVE, its Spirit rests on me-
so wrest from me
everything of mine that’s not of You, mm

i give you full permission

LOVE, tho my eyes are clouded i say yes
LOVE, tho i know You not as intimately as i long to i say Yes!
LOVE!
let the fact that my body draws breath
be my eternal yes
and it’s death be my amen

The Discipleship Training School that I’ve been staffing since September had a “Creative Intensive Weekend” last week and as part of it, I shared ‘death be my amen’ with the school. If you read on you’ll see my inspiration for this poem.
You, me, and everybody in the world struggle to say Yes to LOVE. And we struggle with Yes because LOVE is Yahweh, and we as humans kinda suck at knowing truly who Yahweh is. I remember walking down State Street in Madison, Wi last year overhearing a conversation by 2 UW Madison students, “The God of the Old Testament is such a f*cking masochist!”, the one said.
Within me indignation arose like a mushroom cloud- a bomb had dropped and I could do nothing to defend my LOVE. I didn’t know the 2.
I kept walking. “my LOVE’s heart beats loud. . .” and it at times beats so loud that we become deaf to the life it signifies. Unable to hear my LOVE as loving.
And then the New Testament comes along and we get Jesus and He seems so nice and loving and soft and passionate and all the good stuff that we find so hard to see in “the f*cking masochist” that is “the God of the Old Testament”.
LOVE! aren’t our eyes still clouded? yes, clouded as Flint’s water
The next lines are a prayer to the One who is, at times, obscured from my sight the way a bride’s veil obscures her LOVE from her sight
when my eyes lie i need your breath to become vacuum. . . I’m a child of the Truth, and this world is at war tryna divide me from You“.
The poem ends with me speaking directly to my LOVE, telling Him
“tho my eyes are clouded i say yes
LOVE, tho i know You not as intimately as i long to i say Yes!
LOVE!
let the fact that my body draws breath
be my eternal yes
and it’s death be my amen”

and my “yes” is so emphatic because “i want to be like prime numbers
divisible by One
and myself, only”

The Outer

  • Destiny and I are leading a team of 15 students to Cyprus and North Africa for the next 3 months. We leave in 2 days!!
  • Due to my not staffing in YWAM Madison anymore the organization that processes my support has changed. I was able to get the new account approved just today. Dear supporters expect an email from me that tells you how to keep supporting me. Thanks for your support!
  • Being in Nurnberg is a tremendously liberating experience. Perhaps there was a proverbial “something in the water” in Madison because being here I feel like a weight has lifted and I am more myself than I have ever been in my entire life.

The Photos

Dear Supporters

  • Instructions for transferring your support (YWAM Madison has already cancelled your donations to me, the last deposit will have been in the first week of December so you don’t have to worry about cancelling your support but if you are- )
  • email: ywam@ywammadison.org and say, “my name is _______ and I want to cancel the support I send to Matthew Bogart.
  • to start supporting me Fill out this form: https://meigiving.com/Sites/meiGiving2.php and when it asks “Person/Project/Account” write in “BM3654”. This is my account number. You can choose how much to give, and how frequently, and the duration of your donations!
    As I’ll be on outreach I’ll have limited ability to check in with you to see if the transfer went smoothly, but I hope to be able to reach out.

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